Well, I thought I'd type up a journal to let everyone know how I'm doing and to address various issues.
So, here we go~

So I've been addicted to Muse lately. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the mind-numbingly mellow tones that their music seems to have on me while I spend my time playing MMOs, but I seem to be able to listen to them on repeat for the entire day without caring at all. I've liked 'Knights of Cydonia' in particular since I first heard it, admittedly, on Guitar Hero 3. Now, I'm listening to it more and more because when I do, I find myself envisioning life in the MMO I currently play(Mabinogi) according to it. I tend to do this often to songs I listen to over and over but 'Knights of Cydonia' just has a really epic theme to it that makes me want to get into video editing.


Now, on to the important part!
The journal entry to accompany the poem I recently submitted~
Those of you who've known me for long enough to become close friends know that I am an easy person to get along with. You also know that I am really easy to get close to. This being said, I've only really ever loved 2 people throughout my entire life and one of these people happens to be an imaginary girl that only exists 'on paper.' She's always acted as a barrier for me; a sort of security blanket, if you will. She's kept me from getting too close to people and only let up when I fell in love with my ex 3 years ago. Now, the time has come again that I've fallen in love, which gives me hope that there is someone in this world that may be right for me! But the catch! The catch is she's taken!
Aha!
I've yet to really figure out WHY I've fallen for her, but I do so enjoy being around her and the fact that she really doesn't live too far away probably helps a ton. That, among other things, like being able to identify with how my life is at home, being a fellow Libra, enjoying the same music and games... Well, I suppose you really don't need to know a whole lot about someone to fall in love with them, but I'd still like to feel as though I have a solid reason why. I could say she makes me happy, but a lot of people do that... Regardless, what I'm worried about most is what is going to happen. She's taken. That means I can't really... do anything. I can be friendly to an extent and that's about it. I feel like I can wait, even though it hurts a bit(and I find ways to deal~), but saying "I can wait" makes me feel like I'm saying "I'm waiting until they break up so i have my chance." It's like... having patience is making me seem like an asshole. On one hand, I want to tell her things like how I feel here and there, how I've had dreams about her and the like, but on the other hand, I don't want to influence her current relationship and make myself seem like I'm pushing too hard.
Such is life, I guess!


Other things:
I haven't done hardly any writing or drawings as of late... obviously.
Still looking for a job, but because I'm such a lazy bastard, I've yet to find one.
Working mornings at Blockbuster doesn't sound too great but it's the most convenient one so far, so I must hope that I hear back on that soon!
I might get back into security as well, seeing as my best friend(who's currently passed out upon the couch across from me) is tired of his current job site and wants to scope out some others. Seeing as we worked so damn well together before, I think it may be a worthwhile venture.
We shall see!